SETTING OF THE STORY
Name: Wong Zhe Herng
Nickname: Guardian Angel
BirthDay: 8th September
Horoscope Sign: Virgo
Gender: Male
Nationality: Malaysian (Singapore PR)
Passions: Writing [Stories, Poems}, Reading, Listening to my Fav music, Singing, Fanboying [heh],
Appreciating everything existent on this plane of life-etc., just pondering about stuff I like,
making people happy..., maybe drawing too, Anime I like and watching drama or random crap related
to stuff I like [k-pop groups...XD].
Likes: People. Especially those with great personalities. Good food, games, having fun. Books, nice poems,
music I like. Relaxing, singing well, good ideals. a person who's character is one that I can totally respect
in one way or another... Feeling good, and inspired/hyped up. Doing something good. Enjoying myself.
Appreciating what I have. Excelling/achieving success... A good game of chess,etc. Funny, cheering stuff. Anime.
And living in my own reality [hoping, dreaming]. [K-pop groups? Heh heh] AND FF!!! FINAL FANTASY!!!! Hell Yeah!
Dislikes: Dreaded things, too many tests and projects, procrastinating, feeling betrayed or let down/disappointed.
and there's just the things I don't like about myself... Feeling angry, holding grudges. Letting others down. Feeling
anxious, sad, etc. People. Certain kind of people... Many other crap.etc.etc.etc.
Dreaming/Hoping for:
1)To escape reality
2)Good results in my endeavors
3)A life XD
4)Skillz [in things like studies, knowledge, sports, singing, etc.]
5)My many dreams to come true...
6)Some random freak accident where I actually become friends with my idols...
7)Abilities like being able to speak all languages and bend reality...etc.etc.etc.
8)If they actually fall for me. Or something. At least friends? *sigh* fail...
9)To be smooth and what [good-looking, with style-being cool, whatever]???
10)To be some imba singer? Like get enlisted in SM Town or something. Woah. Then again, refer to no.7. 1st point.
11)To become very fit very fast.
12)Crazy pro dancer? [eg.Eunhyuk-woah]
13)Stop worrying so much before I actually wear my soul out
14)World peace? Stop global warming? Technological advancement? Eco-friendly world? Yup.
15)Some famous writer-author & poet. Or some pro dancer/singer in english,kpop, chinese? Haiz
16)Ability to rap korean real fast and pro and make it sound right. And sing well in korean
17)Pro b-boy moves?
18)People to like me.
19)People to UNDERSTAND me.
20)More kpop and fanboying related dreams. Heh.
21)Successful?
22)Be a somebody. On this world. [and maybe in kpop...XD]
23)Be some kind of FF story director or something.
Dreams and hopes which actually have a chance of coming true
1)My favourite music [cds? anything related]
2)Anything with my fav groups inside....
3)Kpop idol photobooks. Hard. But still.
4)Doing moderately well in studies
5)Some electronics? [ipod touch?]
6)Good friends
7)Improve fitness
8)Improve singing
9)Improve my random freestyle anyhow crap in hopes of looking cool dancing
10)Continue being me [with all the emo, fanboying, poems...etc.]-should be the easiest?
11)Learn a bit more languages?
12)Stop procrastinating that much
13)People to like more Kpop? [bordering impossible/first group]
14)Find some free time-hard as well though
15)Enjoying myself/relaxing, a bit at least
16)Spreading the love for Kpop [SNSD, Kara, Suju...Hwaiting!]
17)More materialistic things? zzzz
7:59 AM
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Let's start once again. I know it's been a few months now, so here I am again. It's quite long. But who cares.
I got a yoyo, its a legacy. Not bad eh? But quite noob. I can't handle the unresponsiveness well.
Got 3.2 for chinese EOY. Not so bad. But wished it was better. Like always.
There goes my 3.6 GPA. Poof. But over is over. So I want to care about that. What's done is done. So leave it all in the past.
Back to facebooking and fanboying. YES! FANBOYING FTW! SO there. Ha.
Wheee. Got loads to talk about. Been going to library. Camp preparations. Teehee. Amazing race=*sighs*
And heck load of stuff. Getting papers back. I'm dead and whatever.
Can't choose subjects. Thinking about double science and double humans. And maybe drop malay. Sadded. No time lah.
With CCA and merit CCA and all. And mugging. And loads more.
Sorry people. Go ahead and suan me. It's ok. And discourage me. Doesn't matter. Some things, I've set out to do. This time, I'm gonna do it. For the people I care about and doing the things I love. So to hell with failure. And who cares.
This applies to everything. Right down to me writing my book. Yes, I know my chances. I know that it is highly unlikely. And my skills are probably low quality and standards. But you can't judge can you? Did you ever read any of my prose? No, I think not. But hey, I've not even tried properly. It's not fair to judge. And I know the truth sucks. But I'm nowhere near giving up. Not a chance.
And for your information. I'm not doing this for money. Don't ask me the reason. It won't make sense to you anyway. No. It won't. Not ideal, feasible, rational or logical. But for me, it's like a chance. So I'm grabbing it. I'm gonna make opportunities. Or at least attempt to.
Yes, I know it may be futile. Hey, I know you aren't trying to discourage me. Just stating facts. But if I don't try, how would you know what the result will be? Can anyone here predict the future? No, I don't think so.
Senseless or not. I will try. I will make that effort. Even if it leads to naught. Just the same for singing. It's like a passion. Something I can't bear to give up no matter the numerous times I fail. It's part and parcel of my life and actions.
So I will try.
Cheers, but I'm not the logical guy. So many things, the choices, decisions, ideas, all based on my emotions, likings, preferences, feelings, passions. Yes, that's what makes everyone selfish in a unselfish way. Or the other way around. Live it through.
Sad, but that's me. There's a reason, why there's no 2 people who think exactly alike. But that's the beauty of it.
Going back to my life. Results fail and everything. Got a whole list of things to do. And just awaiting for stuff to happen. Hopefully a good chance.
Something optimistic.
Something big.
Something spectacular.
Something that will change my life.
For the better.
Annyeong
Your Guardian Angel
Zhe Herng
Signing off
Quote of the Post
It's not just about thinking it. It's about trying. And about making the effort to try in the first place.
