SETTING OF THE STORY
Name: Wong Zhe Herng
Nickname: Guardian Angel
BirthDay: 8th September
Horoscope Sign: Virgo
Gender: Male
Nationality: Malaysian (Singapore PR)
Passions: Writing [Stories, Poems}, Reading, Listening to my Fav music, Singing, Fanboying [heh],
Appreciating everything existent on this plane of life-etc., just pondering about stuff I like,
making people happy..., maybe drawing too, Anime I like and watching drama or random crap related
to stuff I like [k-pop groups...XD].
Likes: People. Especially those with great personalities. Good food, games, having fun. Books, nice poems,
music I like. Relaxing, singing well, good ideals. a person who's character is one that I can totally respect
in one way or another... Feeling good, and inspired/hyped up. Doing something good. Enjoying myself.
Appreciating what I have. Excelling/achieving success... A good game of chess,etc. Funny, cheering stuff. Anime.
And living in my own reality [hoping, dreaming]. [K-pop groups? Heh heh] AND FF!!! FINAL FANTASY!!!! Hell Yeah!
Dislikes: Dreaded things, too many tests and projects, procrastinating, feeling betrayed or let down/disappointed.
and there's just the things I don't like about myself... Feeling angry, holding grudges. Letting others down. Feeling
anxious, sad, etc. People. Certain kind of people... Many other crap.etc.etc.etc.
Dreaming/Hoping for:
1)To escape reality
2)Good results in my endeavors
3)A life XD
4)Skillz [in things like studies, knowledge, sports, singing, etc.]
5)My many dreams to come true...
6)Some random freak accident where I actually become friends with my idols...
7)Abilities like being able to speak all languages and bend reality...etc.etc.etc.
8)If they actually fall for me. Or something. At least friends? *sigh* fail...
9)To be smooth and what [good-looking, with style-being cool, whatever]???
10)To be some imba singer? Like get enlisted in SM Town or something. Woah. Then again, refer to no.7. 1st point.
11)To become very fit very fast.
12)Crazy pro dancer? [eg.Eunhyuk-woah]
13)Stop worrying so much before I actually wear my soul out
14)World peace? Stop global warming? Technological advancement? Eco-friendly world? Yup.
15)Some famous writer-author & poet. Or some pro dancer/singer in english,kpop, chinese? Haiz
16)Ability to rap korean real fast and pro and make it sound right. And sing well in korean
17)Pro b-boy moves?
18)People to like me.
19)People to UNDERSTAND me.
20)More kpop and fanboying related dreams. Heh.
21)Successful?
22)Be a somebody. On this world. [and maybe in kpop...XD]
23)Be some kind of FF story director or something.
Dreams and hopes which actually have a chance of coming true
1)My favourite music [cds? anything related]
2)Anything with my fav groups inside....
3)Kpop idol photobooks. Hard. But still.
4)Doing moderately well in studies
5)Some electronics? [ipod touch?]
6)Good friends
7)Improve fitness
8)Improve singing
9)Improve my random freestyle anyhow crap in hopes of looking cool dancing
10)Continue being me [with all the emo, fanboying, poems...etc.]-should be the easiest?
11)Learn a bit more languages?
12)Stop procrastinating that much
13)People to like more Kpop? [bordering impossible/first group]
14)Find some free time-hard as well though
15)Enjoying myself/relaxing, a bit at least
16)Spreading the love for Kpop [SNSD, Kara, Suju...Hwaiting!]
17)More materialistic things? zzzz
9:40 AM
Friday, November 27, 2009
Inspiring people feels good. But whether I'm inspiring them to do stuff which are more unappealing and weird. Oh, not good. And perhaps piss them off. Ah, now that doesn't feel good. This is of course assuming people actually listen to my ranting.
Sometimes, you just wanna get things over with. Believe me, I know.
Now, I've basically been spending my whole days tuning into the tv. And spending 75% of that time on Discovery Channel. Nice. Now I just find some shows plain awesome. Like Mythbusters. And recently, Deadliest Catch.
Yes, with all the swearing and censoring in 1 out of 3 sentences, and some pushing and shoving. And bad luck, and arguing, and some fingers. As well as more swearing. It's pretty awesome. Yes, even with the swearing even when you encounter some good crab fishing. I mean, like quote: "Yeah! Yes! Yeah! -beep- Yeah!" when there's a good catch. And like "Oh, -beep-cold...labour...tired... -beep- crab. -beep- fishing...storm...30 foot seas... -BEEP!-" Yeah, stuff like that, I guess it makes the show more interesting. Life on board a Bering Sea fishing boat, looking out for good crab fishing.
Interesting, but I'm not yet willing to lay down my life for some heck of a ride on the seas, high waves, stormy weather, dangerous situations, bad luck, swearing, tension, going without sleep for 30 hours doing back breaking labour routine and getting nothing but blank pots in the wet and cold. Yeah stuff like that. You know.
Let's get this over with. Seriously.
With some more hoping.
And guys, seriously, if you think I'm emo, then that's a tad bit too extra. Cause, this is called thinking about things average guys don't think about. Not oh, I'm feeling depressed, so I'm off for a bit to the kitchener to get the knife and start slicing my wrist. That's emo. I just...uh...just think and worry more than others. You know. And who says writing poems and other stuff, craping about sensitive subjects like love on blogs, listening to multitudes of music=emo? It's called expressing feelings. It's just something I do in different ways than many others.
Oh, and come on, my singing isn't that bad. It's just that I'm not that good with voice control over stuff like pitching. Especially when it comes to the high end. And I enjoy doing it. It's like a passion. Yes, despite the different languages. Heh.
Okay, I'm dead on monday. The prospects of walking with all your load for camp at 3am in the morning from Bishan all the way to Changi probably does that to you. Anticipation. That is if it hasn't scared the crap out of you and left you witless.
Bleh, what am I complaining about. Come on, after watching all the harsh, tough, traumatising, close death/death encounters on screen on Discovery/Nat Geo. What am I whining about? I'm not stuck in the middle of the Bering Sea risking my life for crab. I'm not stranded in the middle of the sea screaming futilely for help. I'm not being held hostage by random terrorists in a enclosed death filled hotel. I'm not trapped on a burning ship with nowhere to go but down into the water. I'm not in a tall building that's about to collapse any moment.
Come on, what am I whining about a miserable trek compared to a mind-boggling hike across the barren wastelands of Russia looking for some signs of life in the blistering cold. Why am I so apprehensive of push-ups/punishment when I could be dying alone in some corner of a desert? Why am I worrying about lack of sleep when I could be in the Bering Sea, catching crab, doing back-breaking work, risking my life without sleep for 20+ hours? Why am I worried about the food, when I could be drinking my own pee to survive?
I won't die of starving, hypothermia/hyperthermia, fever, poison, venom, dehydration, being brutally ripped apart by wild animals, exhaustion, being shot at, drowning, burning, suffocation, and all the other painful random shiz. I'm just away in school for a slightly tiring NPCC camp.
So what am I complaining about???
Okay, I guess this self-induced prep talk is gonna make me feel better? Not that much, but helps a bit. But not the results I was hoping for. Goes to show how selfish we normal people are, only caring about your own pathetic situations. In most cases of course. There are the exemplary exceptions.
Okay, annyeong.
Your Guardian Angel
Zhe Herng
Trying not to complain
Quote of the Post
When you think that luck's tough, then think again. A fellow human is probably getting his ass kicked by mother nature or something and is dying out there. He's probably already dead. So don't whine about pathetic miscellaneous shiz that much.
